Sunday, September 8, 2013

You are on your own

While travelling through metro today, I saw this lady who was a north-eastern, standing with huge bag on her back and loads of money in her pocket. She was in her night dress, in metro with her sister or a friend, I don’t know. I managed to get a seat and was busy in untangling my ear phones which always messes up. As soon as, I untangled and got busy in listen to songs, my sight goes on this lady’s wrist. And I was horrified. What I looked at,wasn’t what I see rarely, but still I was like “what the heck!”
Delhi-Metro-Rail

Now you all must be wondering “aisabhikyadekha”, so this lady, about whom I am talking since last 10 lines, had huge cuts of knife, starting from her elbow and ending on her wrist. No single place was vacant on her wrist. It was all cuts and bruises. The first thought that came to my mind was, what could be the reason behind this torcher she made herself go through? A lot of us go through a lot in life. And for many of us, relationships out of our family are sort of escapism from what we face around us. This typerelationship is the most fragile one; everything and anything can lead to the biggest mistakes of one’s life. No I am not talking of virginity here; virginity is no more called a MISTAKE. I am talking about the suicidal tendencies that are growing in numbers, day to day.
Sometimes not even a relationship, but family matters and all stuff like that, makes one do so. Cutting wrist, eating some medicine, drinking poison etc. have turned like a game, for people nowadays. I know and understand life is not easy to live. But, if you are so weak that anyone and everyone can have access to take away your life, then life becomes hell. We all, including me, need to learn every single day that, we, at any point of life are living for ourselves and are on our own. We cannot be dependent on anyone, and cannot expect that someone would bring peace in our life, because to have peace in life, one has to be in peace within them.
Nothing can raise you in life if you are yourself demoralized and nothing can bring you down if you are respecting your inner-self more than any damn thing around. This doesn’t mean that you start misbehaving with your parents or with anyone, as that would again disturb your peace of mind. But this surely means that we need to grow up, stop punishing ourselves for things we aren’t even responsible for, tit for tat might work a lot of times but not every time. Value yourself; don’t expect that someone else would do it for you. Remember, you came to this alone, you will leave alone. You were never ever born to satisfy or live on other’s terms but was born to live on your own terms.

Monday, September 2, 2013

CHANGE

I’m happy; I just can’t keep others happy!
well, many say I have changed, I say “change is good, change is worth the effort.”
you don’t just change in a day, you see, analyse, get hurt, get emotional, get betrayed and then one day you wake up to be someone totally different. Well, they just simply see the changes not the reasons behind you changing yourself.

There are happy days, and then there are sad days and then just DAYS. You keep yourself going somehow but then there is a disappointment that clings to your mind and body. This disappointment is out of nowhere, because the day you woke up and changed, your mind changed but then you felt stranded and alone. Suddenly you wish everything gets back to normal but it is too late! This is life, life is disappointing and expectations? Well, they hurt a lot more.
So just accept the change and focus on the pros rather than the cons. Because at the end of the day, those people because of whom you changed will themselves figure it out, because it’s not just your mess but there’s too.
Don’t take off on the guilt ride, everyone gets a chance to make a difference, everybody has to adapt to the change and then it changes completely, and this change is good, it keeps you going.
So yes I was somebody else yesterday, today I am someone new. No I do not change every day. I just keep myself going and then I adapt.
In this process, we lose many people, some are close and some are not! They are just stepping stones. You meet people, few stay, and the rest; well they walk away.
You can’t keep acting and pretending, some day you have to let go the people and live with the memory.
and now that I am a grown up, sensible enough to pen down my emotions, I find it easy for me to see and look through the changes and then simply accept them as a part and parcel of life!
But then don’t we a get a benefit of emotions? I mean cant we simply overlook and accept each others as we are, completely flawed and harmless! Just lost somewhere between the monopoly of life. Well, I guess not!
So when life is throwing these changes I me, I changed myself for my better own good!
As they “fittest survive”.